Spilled red wine on the couch. Got up to get a cloth to wipe it up. Decided I should wash the pans that had been sitting there for 24 hours. Washed the pans. Saw the coffee pot. Decided I'd get coffee ready to make in the morning. Got the coffee ready, went to go sit down and realized there was red wine on the couch.
This is the story of my life. I've been sitting here for the last however many hours on the TV and computer, while PILES of clean laundry are sitting in the other room waiting to be folded, and I'm miles behind on the work I have to get done. It's so frustrating! But the guilt I feel for sitting here, doesn't seem to motivate me to move my ass!
I have been looking into coaching. I've been to counselors multiple times. Part of me still feels like this is all in my head--not a real "condition" at all--just a lack of character on my part. Geez, by 40 I thought I'd have it all figured out...
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Following through...
The trouble with ADHD is so many great ideas and so little follow through! I started this blog as a way to vent some of the millions of thoughts that bounce around in my head each day, and now here it's been over a year since I've posted.
It gets so frustrating to feel intelligent, but have nothing to show for it because I can't make anything happen. Who cares about a great idea if nothing ever gets done? Isn't that the true difference between those who achieve success and those who don't?
Lately, I have been completely overwhelmed. I keep taking on more and more things until now I feel like I'm not doing any of them well. The crazy thing is, there are about 100 more things I'd like to start doing too! The toll that ADHD has taken on my self-esteem is brutal. I feel like such a failure and a bad person--and I still question whether it's even ADHD or just a character issue--even though I've been diagnosed.
Trying to help my 16 year old son with ADHD through his academic challenges feels nearly impossible when I'm so terrible at managing my own life.
I've been considering hiring an ADHD coach. Part of me is hopeful that it could help, but part of me doesn't want to waste money on something that probably won't help at all. I feel like I live in this land of in-between, never really being able to decide and move forward.
Wow, this post has turned more negative than I planned! Life is good and I am blessed--now I just need to approach each day that way. And who knows, maybe a coach can help me do that.
It gets so frustrating to feel intelligent, but have nothing to show for it because I can't make anything happen. Who cares about a great idea if nothing ever gets done? Isn't that the true difference between those who achieve success and those who don't?
Lately, I have been completely overwhelmed. I keep taking on more and more things until now I feel like I'm not doing any of them well. The crazy thing is, there are about 100 more things I'd like to start doing too! The toll that ADHD has taken on my self-esteem is brutal. I feel like such a failure and a bad person--and I still question whether it's even ADHD or just a character issue--even though I've been diagnosed.
Trying to help my 16 year old son with ADHD through his academic challenges feels nearly impossible when I'm so terrible at managing my own life.
I've been considering hiring an ADHD coach. Part of me is hopeful that it could help, but part of me doesn't want to waste money on something that probably won't help at all. I feel like I live in this land of in-between, never really being able to decide and move forward.
Wow, this post has turned more negative than I planned! Life is good and I am blessed--now I just need to approach each day that way. And who knows, maybe a coach can help me do that.
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